In Seventh Heaven

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I feel tired, I feel lazy and not feeling totally good at all today. I was thinking that maybe I just need some vitamins. I took one with iron this morning since that’s all I’ve got but nothing changed. I still feel the same.

I think I was just exhausted with yesterday’s activities. It was the first day of classes yesterday and instead of just taking my son to school, I waited there for him for three hours because he didn’t want me to leave. So I had to stay and just sat at the bench located near the entrance gate and feeling all the heat of the sun as well as the wind touching my skin. There was a shade in that area of course but still, it was so hot.

I hope I would feel a lot better today after having taken a few minute nap earlier. I needed it so much and glad I had it.

I was hoping for it for like a couple of days and guess what, It finally happened last night and it totally came as a surprise. I thought he had totally ignored it since I can see his updates in my feeds. I’ve already accepted the idea that he’s not going to accept it but he did. I was like, whoa! How come he did all of a sudden?

But oh well, I hope he wasn’t pushed into something that he didn’t like doing. Nobody pushed him, I think. I was thinking that maybe his son did because he saw my post. Hehe. Well, he can edit it anytime anyway. It’s his choice. (“,) I’ll see you soon, mister.

It could be considered an overused cliche’ but what can I say? It is definitely true. I just couldn’t put the details here for I don’t think it would be appropriate. The individual who ain’t please with me will not be able to read this anyway. How I wish that earthling could read this though. I can send him the permalink if I like. LOL.

Nah, I’m not going to do that. I have nothing against that person. I’m just kind of wondering how come he ignored my friend request. Haha. You might think  it’s so petty, huh? Not for me for he is somebody I so wish to know and get close to because soon enough, he would be part of my life too. Maybe he’s still shy with me. Well, I do hope that’s the only reason. I still don’t know his reasons. Maybe I’ll ask him one day. If I’ll get the guts to do that, that is. Maybe you can just wish me luck. Wooot!

It can happen anytime, even in the wee hours of the morning, and my BA couldn’t do anything about it for that’s what his job calls for. He only hopes for no call-ins but it is just not possible.

Just yesterday, he was called in at 2 o’clock in the morning. He slept late the previous night so he only had about two to three hours of sleep. Poor BA! But knowing him who’s always ready to rumble, I know it’s not something biggy for him. But things like that really is exhausting. He was up for nineteen hours today and gladly he wasn’t called in again in the early morning.

He’ll be up in a few minutes for another battle at work. I’m actually waiting for him now because we weren’t able to talk last night because he was home late. And he’s here now, so got to go! (“,)

It may sound funny but I really was sniffing like a dog when my BA was here. Want to know why? Well, he was using a cologne called “Old Spice” and I just love its smell. It was my first time to have smelled it and I fell in love with it instantly. And boy, BA couldn’t help laughing whenever I sniff not to mention with the “sniff” sound. I did it on purpose really, for fun, you know.

And today, I suddenly missed sniffing like a dog. LOL. Seriously, I really missed smelling my BA’s smell. We’ve been apart for more than two months now and I do wonder when I will be able to smell him again or sniff him again, if I may say so. Hee hee.

Answer me, BA! *wink*

This was at the back of the coffee shop that my BA and I went to after having our first movie date. We were freezing cold at the cinema so BA thought of going to a coffee shop afterward to warm ourselves with hot coffee. But mind you, mine wasn’t hot since I don’t like having hot coffee in the middle of the day. That’s my glass of cold cafe latte’ on the table.

I wasn’t supposed to stay at this part of the coffee shop because this is the smoking area but BA preferred to stay here since it’s cold inside, and did I just mention that we were freezing cold. Hee hee.

This was also a very special day for us because it’s the day that he proposed to me and on bended knee at that. Beat that! LOL. What a happy and surprising day that was. My BA definitely put me on cloud 9. (“,)

Strange things can happen to just about anything. I mean, technical failures and such and ym or yahoo messenger is not an exception. But there were times that it’s so weird that it’s unbelievable anymore and guess what? You may find it petty or shallow but it’s one of the causes of my misunderstanding with my BA. I don’t know, i just get confused instantly and before i knew it, paranoia had engulfed me.

But things were settled before they became worst though. And i can’t thank my BA enough for being so understanding and patient with me. Do i deserve it BA? Hehe.

That despite the odds that i’ve been experiencing lately, there are still people who never fail to make me feel better. People who understand me inspite of my flaws, people who comfort me all the way and most of all, people who love me unconditionally – no buts, no ifs, just 100% love.

I may be using the word people but to be honest, there’s only a few of them. Don’t want to mention names but i do believe they know who they are.

Thank you very much. I know saying those words isn’t enough but all i know, you’ll be greatly blessed for all the loving, understading and patience you’ve given.